Well, when I was in high school, I use to write alot, and got out of the habit. Now, I've had a few things come up in my life that I would like to get out and just relax about.
First off, my God is great! I don't say this lightly. I do say it excitedly, but He has been tried, tested and is TRUE. I would be worse off then I am now if I did not know Him.He helps me cope with this are hairy with my Granny, Best Friend, Family and Work. I am forever ever thankful that I can go to Him anytime about anything and know He truly cares, loves and will help me.
Sigh, you will find that I am in a sad or rather depressed mood of late and this is unusual for me. I am going through an adjustment in life right now, where everything is of sorts and I am still adjusting to it.... RIGHT. LOL Well, with GOD's help, I will adjust just fine.
So currently I go to an online school to be a missionary, which I'm probably not going to be, but I would like to gain the confidence that I need, as well as I am looking a new job in the Police Force as a Telecommunications Special Constable, (But shhh don't tell anyone because that will probably jinx it... LOL) I am also detaching myself from my best friend who I got a bit too close too and now it's ummmm messing up alot of things. I don't know the outcome of any of these things and struggle to find my peace and a smile at times. I am often in tears, which is a big no-no in my world, and I feel physically sick occasionally when he texts me. My great granny is going down hill and it breaks my heart. Oh but she is going to heaven and I know I am going to see her someday. I just will miss her dearly.
I will try my best to be cheery, (I use to be..) and to tell you about how Good God is. (= I mean, He saves, and forgives and gives out joy, peace, patience, love, long suffering, and mercy. Without Him, I would have given up my hope in life and love for people.
Tis all for tonight. Hope you have a good night, God Bless and don't forget to smile because the devil surely doesn't like it and you are BEAUTIFUL!!
-J
